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Pain… My closest friend… Here am I once again. Standing on the brink of a precipice. Looking down into thy dark chasms. Swirling in the darkness. Grief. Heartsick. Oh Why does it have to be this way. My happiness have you taken to toss away on the raging sea. The raging sea. Troubled waters. Boil. Frustration. Reaching out… Yet cringing away at the same time. Everything fades away into nothingness. The dark sky. Illuminated by a single shooting star. I close my eyes. Make a wish. Harsh reality hits. Welcome to existence. I dissolve in a flood of tears. ... Simply speechless ...

Heyz... I knoe tat all of u are concerned for mi... But please ... let mi do tis ALONE . It's not tat y'all dun/won't understand... But it's juz tat i've heard all i've needed to hear... And so far... I juz wanna cry ... Some things... I guess... One juz has to bear it alone... I guess... It's my choice to make... None of you can make it for me... I wanna choose another path... But yet i knoe i can't... I knoe i'm not in a rational state of mind lately... I'm sollie if i havn't been my usual self... Or been able to be there for you people... *Am i finally breakin down*... "People are just about as happy as they make up their minds to be."... Yet... It is possible to face the world with a smiling face... But feel like you're dyin inside... Pretend tat nothing ever happened... Pretend that everything is okie... Tat u don't have a care in the world... I am happie. Acting the same way you do around people... I am fine. Don'...

Let mi bear tis pain by miself...

Heyz... havn't had the mood or the time to blog lately. So far... This week has been lousy. And it's onli tuesdae . haiz Well tis is also TERM TEST week so i've been studying and well... Got like 2 more papers to sit for. One tomolo and the last paper on saturdae. The school is sadistic. Wat's up with putting the darn paper on saturdae and letting us have thursdae and fridae free??!! Sheeeesh. But well... Tat subject isn't too easy so i tink i shall juz shuddup and be grateful then i got the xtra time to study 4 it. Hmm... Well the 1 good thing is that i've spent the past 2 daes studying with Joycie ... Si Hui ... Ying Seah and more people... Fala ... Andrew ... Ali ... Juz some of the other ppl... Thanks for being the one bright spot in my life tis week other than that... The onli thing tat has made mi smile is my dear uncle and my dear papa ... Lol... Thanks for being there... Wishin... you were here with me...I miss ya more and more... Juz wishin ...

Heyz... I'm feeling reallie bleahz todae. Don't reallie knoe why. bleahz Well... Church was good... And i spent the afternoon studyin. Gonna start studying soon again i guess. My priorites= STUDY and then after tat i shall juz go mad and go play. And change phone. Lol.. But i doubt i'll get the X70 though. I still want a "flip flip" phone... Oh well... Nothing interesting happened 2dae. Yesterdae i went to 4 a Vdae service as well. It was fun... And all of you did a fantastic job... ^_^ Reallie glad i made it in time. Take care all.

Heyz.. I'm reallie tired but still... Wishin everyone a HaPPiE VaLeNtiNe'S DaE!! ^_^ And this song... Well.. Although it is neither written nor sung by me... It's a tribute to all of you out there... and to one special person... Take care all... God bless!! ^_^ *If I Never Knew You * If I never knew you If I never felt this love I would have no inkling of How precious life can be And if I never held you I would never have a clue How at last I find in you The missing part of me In this world so full of fear Full of rage and lies I can see the truth so clear In your eyes, so dry your eyes And I'm so grateful to you I'd have lived my whole life through Lost forever If I never knew you If I never knew you I'd be safe, but half as real Never knowing I could feel A love so strong and true And I'm so grateful to you I'd have lived my whole life through Lost forever If I never knew you I thought our love would be so b...

Heyz... Looks as if it has been quite some time since i've last blogged. Heehee...=P Aniwaz todae was the 2nd dae of TP's Open House and i reallie had no idea that walkin around could be so tiring. Lol...Even though i wasn't a tour guide or nething, a couple of my friends came and i ended up bringin them around... Boy was it tiring... * I-Guides, I salute you * I have no idea how you people do it...Lol... But i knoe it's alot of FUN !!! Speaking of which when i was leaving TP i saw Joycie ... Jz and Si Hui !!!!!=P So all of us were sooooo SCREAMING all our heads off!! Heeheehee...=P That even all the other 2 row of I-Guides turned around and stared @ us... Heeeheehee...=P Talk abt being attention grabbing. Lol... But i was reallie reallie happie to see you people!! Y'all made my dae!!^_^ Heeeheee....=P Aniwaz i've gotten my Adidas shoesies!! And my badminton grip!! Yay!!! Lol...=P And my kor is gettin my D'Addario strings for me!! Heeheehee...=P So...

Heyz... I'm in sch rite now... Hahaha...Decided to blog a proper entry instead of juz postin up the quizzees i've been doin... LOl... Hmm... By rite the MSN msn here shld be working but it isn't. Bleahz.>_ ADIDAS shoesies!!!! Wahaha... I finally found a design i like...=P It's blue with this roxy lookin thing on the tip ... And is sooo sooo nice... I shall get them tomolo!! YAY !!! ^_^ Reallie lookin 4 ward to tat... Heehee..=P Anyone who wants to come and crash TP juz give mi a call or an sms... Heehee... I'd be reallie happie to see y'all here!! ^_^ ANd the Open house dates are ermm... 12-14 Feb which is thursdae-Sat ( V'dae !!^_^) But i doubt y'all will wanna spend tat special dae trekkin around schools... Heeheeehee...=P Well well... Let's see if i can recount all the stuff i did from last sundae-tuesdae... Heehee...=P on Sundae... I hadta go to Orchard library to do research 4 mi project proposal which was due on Mondae so my dea...

Heyz... Some of you will love tis... Lol.. POT quiz... Haha... Realized i took it quite some time ago liao... But then nv bother to go and paste. So here it is... Ta-daaaaah..=P Will blog some other dae.. Been bz doin mi proposal 2dae... Lol... hafta hand it in tml...Cioaz and take care!! ^_^ You're Ryoma! Missin Ya!!

Heyz I'm a mad fish... Lol...=P Comments anione?? I knoe i said i'd try to blog... But somehow lackin the mood... Lol... But i did tis quiz so i shall post it...=P Take care y'all!! ^_^ What Finding Nemo Character are You? brought to you by Quizilla ...I'm missin ya more with every passing second...

Heyz... It's saturdae morning and i'm in the TP school library again. Lol... I love the library... Great place to kick back and relax... Either alone or with friends... Lol... The comps aren't 1/2 bad either... They got all flat screens and MSN ... Heeeheeeheee...=P The IT labs don't though... That's sooo sooo sad... I hadta come to school for a 1 hr lesson... And there wasn't any presentation. *Sheesh* If i had known i tink i wld have preferred to sleep in. LOl... I'm lackin soo badly of sleep lately. It's not tat i havn't been sleepin but even when i sleep i wake up soo utterly exhausted It's as if i never got to go to sleep in the 1st place... Bleahz... But even though 2dae wasn't out indivual graded presentations, i did have fun... Finally talked to some of the gals in my class... Lol... 1st time i did since the time i was put in tat class... We had fun..Our group presentation was the best ! Lol... *Yay* ^_^ Was suppose to meet my ko...

Heyz... Reallie love tis ermm... Best thing to call it is Prose? Lol... Not too sure... I guess i still love literature loads even though i'm not in secondary school animore...Lol.. How i miss the good ole' daes... But well... Poly ain't tat bad either i guess... Into 1st year 2nd semester liao... Hard to believe that i spent 6 mths in poly and i'm still as blur as ever... Lol... Haiz... I guess some things nv change do they? LOl...=P Let's see... I have 20 mins to my next lesson... Which is a lecture... And which i'm gonna spend the time doin my tutorial cos i didn't do it last nite... Lol...I'm goin to buy ADIDAS shoes latta!! Yay Yay Yay!! Can't wait!!^_^ Hope i get a nice pair!! Heeeheehee...=P Need it 4 sports... My blue Nike shoes are a gone case... LOl... But i bought them like 2/3 yrs ago so i do have a legitimate reason to get new ones... Heeeheee... Goin after sch~~~ Ladida~ OR shld i skip my lessons and go now?? Lol....Tat's a ...

You are one of the few out there whose wings are truly ANGELIC . Selfless, powerful, and divine, you are one blessed with a certain cosmic grace. You are unequalled in peacefulness, love, and beauty. As a Being of Light your wings are massive and a soft white or silver. Countless feathers grace them and radiate the light within you for all the world to see. You are a defender, protector, and caretaker. Comforter of the weak and forgiver of the wrong, chances are you are taken advantage of once in awhile, maybe quite often. But your innocence and wisdom sees the good in everyone and so this mistreatment does not make you colder. Merciful to the extreme, you will try to help misguided souls find themselves and peace. However not all Angelics allow themselves to be gotten the better of - the Seraphim for example will be driven to fighting for the sake of Justice and protection of those less powerful. Congratulations - and don't ever change - the world needs more people like you. *~*~...

Heyz... Well... I shall try to update daily (w/o being crappy...LOl...=P) Hmm... Todae was a pretty enjoyable dae it bein long and all... But i reallie had fun.... ^_^ Hmmm... Term tests are comin up... Bleahz >_ TP for your timetable yeah?? Everyone KABATTE yeah?? ^_^ Let's all do well and go PARTYYY after tat k? Heeeheehee...=P Well... Another week is almost an end... Haiz... Times reallie does fly doesn't it?? Aniwaz yesterdae i went to Bugis with Prabu and Aziz... Just to go collect cookies... Lol... And then to A'N'BC one of my all time favourite shops!! Heeheehee.. Simply love the place... I can spend at hr in there juz lookin at stationary...=P *Hmm... I'm wierd...Lol....* and well... todae... Did nothing much... IISO was funnie as usual... Lol... The tcher is soooo blur... And well the class is interesting... Heeheehee...=P And speaking of IISO i got my tutorial due tomorrow. Aaargh Whoeva saes poly life isn't tough deserves to be whacked on ...

Heyz... Well... Tis is my 1st blog... Heehee... *Yay!*=P I'll try to update as often as possible and please feel free to leave notes and drop by...=P And tell mi how to improve too...=P Thanks...^_^ - Today ... Tiring tiring dae... Took mi ages how to work on this thing... Lol... School was alrite i guess...^_^ But i'm reallie lacking of sleep... I gueesss i shld hit my bed soon...But well... What with tons of projects... Haiz... Aniwaz sollie for a reallie crappie 1st entry....>_ Missin' You ...

Juz testing...