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Heya. Alrite... I'm finally updating b4 all u peeps start flooding my taggie with the word UPDATE! Lol. Rite. It's actually study leave now and i'm sick! Wahahhaha. -.- But i actually managed 2 do a bit of studying. ^-^ Yay!! =P It's the last dae of the week though. Lol. Feeling reallie exhausted so i shall end with a quizzee... Byee!=P You're the color blue. You have the three c's in life--you're cool, caring and confident. Trustworthy and honest, people are naturally attracted to you. You're unusually optimistic, but that makes life all the better. You're an imaginative person who loves sleeping and dreaming. Hard-working and determined, you excell in school. You're everybody's favorite, and this is because you have this undefined richness in your personality and attitude. Mild-tempered and stable. Not to mention very intelligent. Along with the fact that you're conservative, you're worried about the environment. So ...

Heya.Well... Projects are over. Haha. and from the looks of it my net is nuts again . Oh well. Next hurdle is exams i guess. God pls give me the grace to clear them well for your glory. Amen. *prays hard* My life... is juz hen ne... rite now. hahaha. Those who take nihongo understand? =P I'm feelin a lil' sad too cos it's the end of Jap lessons... haix. Reallie fast sem that juz flew by. >_ ...*Girl with a broken smile* ...

it's alwaz the same cycle isn't it. I get shouted at... And then u get shouted at... And then... U take all the blame upon yourself. When u're not all to blame. And then i get so badly hurt. And u log off cos u tink u're disturbing me... When u reallie dunno wat i need... And then... Something else gets taken away. i guess i reallie dunno how much i treasure something till i lose it. Goodbye.

Heya. I'm back. Hahahaha. Hmm. It's Wednesdae. I feel so fed up with my life and i have no idea why . I know many people are there for me... But it doesn't seem to help. >_ Lol . This is officially the last week of school before the MAJOR EXAMS that is . Lol. And it's so stressful! Presentation after presentation and submission after submission. Sheesh. -.-; I guess... I will be glad that this week is over... But then but then... I would be reallie sad too... It's quite hard... Knowing that i might not be back here next sem to see all my friends. That's a reallie scary thought for me. I'd go through everything all over again if i can just remain here . But sometimes i wonder what it would be like to just get away from everything and everyone. I'm just so tired . I hate pushing myself to strive for things i don't even want. Even though it's good pressure i have to add. And it will be beneficial to me in the long run. But i still find it ...

Heya. I tink i'm mad. It's pouring outside and i'm drowning my sorrows in ice cream . So smart of me eh. Today's church sermon was reallie good. It talked about losing God . I took notes on it as usual. Some things that i spoke to my heart were if you can't find God, it isn't Him who has moved away. It's YOU. cos God wld nv not tell you where He 's going when He leaves. Another thing is that when you realized tat you've lost Him, you hafta stop and TURN BACK to find out what's wrong. Simple instructions. But yet sometimes it can be so hard to do. Aniwaz i'm still feeling pretty upset. I remember wat Pastor. Tim said. It's not true that BGR is the solution to loneliness . The analogy he gave was tat when he and his wife fought... and when you're in a relationship, someone is alwaz supposed to be there for you. But when he fought with his wife... He felt even more lonely then before. And i guess... I can understand that......

Heya. I realized i've been blogging everyday for the past few days. Haha. i guess life is juz too boring or other than that i juz need some stress relieve. Lol. oh well. I'm tryin to clear 4 Hrs of my practical at one shot. Lol. Haix. Sian ah. In still till 2 with none of my friends with me. Tat's juz * saddening although i'm pretty happy juz typing away by myself. Lol. Hmm. I guess i reallie shld talk on the food part for my project but then i'm juz too darn lazie too. Hahaha. Feelin reallie exhausted as well and it's juz 12.30pm . I have absolutely no IDEA how i'm gonna last the rest of this day in this pathetically chronic state and then i'm supposed to go TM after this. Groan . I juz wanna sit somewhere where i can juz chill and relax and breathe . i wanna go to the BEACH . But by the time i leave tis sad place i doubt i'll be able to go there and relax. Haix . I want a breather. I want to escape. From reality But that is juz nv possible i...

Heya. I'm bloggin again. Lol. So tat ppl who are reallie bored at least have some entertainment. Haha. Hmmm. I tink i'm in a stripes and neko craze. hahaha. Geez. Stress is taking it's toll on me i guess. I'm mad. haha. I went to watch Raising Helen and Cinderella Story . ^-^ Cinderella Story was pretty good except tat it was oh soo predictable . Lol. Raising Helen was pretty good too. ^-^ I enjoyed watching both the movies. ^-^ Oso been practicing on my baby a lil'bit more. ^-^ I'm currently (trying to) play One Last Breath so far so good although i'm stuck at the hammer on for Bm7 though. haahahah... But well... Practice makes perfect yeah? =P So i'll juz keep working on it. Haha. The next piece i'll try is Dare you to Move by Switchfoot . I nv had the courage to try it. Till now . Hahaha... And oh well... If i fail miserably at it i'll keep trying or at the very least i'll know at least i tried ! Lol. ^-^ I finally went back for...

Heya. I'm blogging again. I tot u'd tag my blog but u didn't. Oh well. Tat's juz the way it goes i guess. Yesterdae was an absolutely horrible dae. Thanks to these peeps who helped me and made me feel a lil' bit better. My Da Jie , my DEAR DEAR Saru-chan and Edward-san Thanx to my da jie for always bearing with me... My dear Saru-chan for making me feel better and for helping me with my jap... And also to Edward-san for helping me to even get started with my jap and for practicing a lil' bit of jap with me. ^-^ You people are a spot of sunshine on a cloudy dae and enabled me to 4get what i was going thru for awhile. Thank you for that. I went for a bit of retail theraphy yesterdae after Jap class. Lol. Since Saru-chan and Saru-chan no kare both skipped jap. Haha. So we went to TM for awhile. We went to Comics Connection ... and man, i havn't been there in ages. I bought 2 purple colored bells and 1 kuroi neko and 1 shiroi neko . I took t...

I trusted you... How could you have done that to me? I feel so hurt. Even though i'm partly at fault too. Mabbe i'm making a mountain outta a molehill. But i wanna be honest about the way i feel. The emotional scarring goes way beyond the physical scarring. Now... I'm not even sure if i still trust you anymore... and now... I'm scared. of you. Scared of me. Scared for you. I'm scared of what i'll do to you. That everything that has been built up so far will be lost. Isn't it funny? Everything that we have strived to build up thus far can be destroyed by something so small. Then again, it makes me think. If it's so small and insignificant then why am i letting it get to me? Mabbe i reallie am makin a big deal out of it. But i reallie wasn't ready for something like that to happen. I wasn't. I didn't want that to happen. People say that you shld bear the responsibility. But i know i'm partly at fault too. I'm sorrie . I guess my fairyta...

Rite. I'm in school now. Bleh I. Want. to. Sleep . I'm feelin soo darn slpy and tired. Can hardly keep my eyes open. At least my eyes are still functioning properly. Haha. I don't like Mondays. I end school at 5 pm. Blah . At least the project we were doing is finished. Until we give our teacher to see and he asks us to edit it. *Lol*. Hopefully NOT . I wannna sleeep.... Aaaarrrrggghhh... But then it'll juz be a like 20 min nap??? So aiyah 4get it. I came to blog since some ppl say i'm not bloggin enough. Lol. I actually brought my baby to school 2dae. It's sittin beside me now. And i'm too slpy and tired to play it. Haix. We might have a SAND interview latta during practical but i reallie hope not cos i'm too tired to think. This has been the 1 st mondae in months that i turned up around 8 am. Haha. Normally i juz turn up at 11 pm for my tutorials. Next week is the last week of school and then it's exams. Oh joy . I juz can't wait. I'm...

Heya. It's a sundae nite so i'm updating. Since i did promise more updates anywaz. Lol. I'm actually typing a report but oh well. I'm stressed so i'm taking a brief respite here.^-^ I reallie like this new design. Haha. I'll still be editing it. Such as adding songs and mabbe makin sure that the links are really up and stuff. Although todae i got kinda irritated at nite... I tink it's still a good dae. ^-^ I feel so much better now. ^-^ Thanx to those people who have been talking to me. ^-^ Y'all know who you people are. ^-^ And i reallie can't thank you people enough bcos you make my life so much better. ^-^ I feel so HAPPIE!!! Now that i'm done thankin people. *Lol* i shall give y'all an update on my life. Wahahaha. I've been sick since thursdae with totally horrible stomach cramps. AARgh . Let mi tell ya. it reallie sux . I cld hardly walk. But at least now i'm alrite. Haha. Although still tryin not to strain myself too much...

Heya~ I'm finally updating my blog!! Whee. =P And i finally have a design i like. Haha. Rite since my dear JUAN ZEE has been PESTERING me to UPDATE, i shall and give her "face". Wahahaha. XD Aniwaz... I'm feeling sick. Managed to get 2 days MC. Alrite... i need to thank these people... My dear DA JIE and EDWARD-SAN . A BIG BIG BEEEG THANK YOU for helpin me out yesterdae when i was feelin so bad. ^-^ Owe you guys big time!!! ^-^ Aniwaz my life rite now is reallie stressed... Nothing much happening except that all my attachment praticals are over. Like Finally . Sheesh man. I can hardly wait for school to be over. Blah. I'm so tired. Aniwaz i'll blog more another dae... Ja ne...